have you ever stopped and wondered why you do something? why did you take a giant step and make commitments that one day you do not want to keep? why when your heart is hurting so bad and you need someone to love you, you build a wall so thick around your heart that know one can break through? why do we as humans make one choice in our lives when we know it will lead to one more choice and then another choice? why do we knowingly put God on the backburner when we know we should be on fire for him? why do we push ourselves to accomplish so much in the world when we have nothing accomplished in our hearts? why do we wander around in the world wondering where we went wrong in our lives, to get us to the point that we are at? why do we as humans want the things that we want? why do we tell God no? why do we do what we want, and not what God wants? why do we live like others are living? why is it so important for us as human being's to be happy? why do we want all of life's riches and joys when we know in the end it will do us no good? why do live the way we do when we know what God want's?

Have you ever wondered these things? Has God brought you to the point of brokenness in your life? Have you come to the point when you have done everything the wrong way and your last resort is God? Why does God let us do this to ourselves? Why do we come to a point in our lives when we say why? Why God? Why God did you let me do this to myself?

Then you here God say: I want you open and broken before me, listen to my word's and I will direct your path, I will walk with you through the shadow of death, I will lead you through the paths of righteousness, I will bless you when you are persecuted, but most of all my son I will love you, I have loved you, I have let my own son die for you, Oh, yes my son, you ask me why, and I tell you because I love you. Because I do love you.

Well alot of things have been happening in my life lately. . .So I think I'll just start at the beginning and try to keep it short.

Last about a week and a half ago I got sick, I was having these really bad headaches and I just felt bad. So in the middle of the night Tue. I got up to take a shower (bad idea) usually showers make me feel better but this was not the case. . .I got really dizzy and I passed out in the shower but woke up immediatly went I fell into the wall, I managed to get out of the shower and promptly passed out on the bathroom floor.My mom came and checked on me and found me asleep on the bathroom floor(that's not really normal). She got me up I sat down in a chair and passed out again. So my parents took me to the ER where the doctors checked me out and decided there was nothing wrong with me(well at least they knew I wasn't going to die)I was just really dizzy from my headache. I went home and played sick the next couple of days but now my haedache is gone and I feel great.
I start my two week vacation today and I plan on being just a little lazy and having lots of fun. I bought a car, It was a rebuildable but it is almost completely brandnew looking and I will be driving soon. . .It's a Pontac Sunfire. . .
and that is my enjoyable life. . .tatafornow. . LeeAnn

have you ever stopped and wondered why you do something? why did you take a giant step and make commitments that one day you do not want to keep? why when your heart is hurting so bad and you need someone to love you, you build a wall so thick around your heart that know one can break through? why do we as humans make one choice in our lives when we know it will lead to one more choice and then another choice? why do we knowingly put God on the backburner when we know we should be on fire for him? why do we push ourselves to accomplish so much in the world when we have nothing accomplished in our hearts? why do we wander around in the world wondering where we went wrong in our lives, to get us to the point that we are at? why do we as humans want the things that we want? why do we tell God no? why do we do what we want, and not what God wants? why do we live like others are living? why is it so important for us as human being's to be happy? why do we want all of life's riches and joys when we know in the end it will do us no good? why do live the way we do when we know what God want's?

Have you ever wondered these things? Has God brought you to the point of brokenness in your life? Have you come to the point when you have done everything the wrong way and your last resort is God? Why does God let us do this to ourselves? Why do we come to a point in our lives when we say why? Why God? Why God did you let me do this to myself?

Then you here God say: I want you open and broken before me, listen to my word's and I will direct your path, I will walk with you through the shadow of death, I will lead you through the paths of righteousness, I will bless you when you are persecuted, but most of all my son I will love you, I have loved you, I have let my own son die for you, Oh, yes my son, you ask me why, and I tell you because I love you. Because I do love you.